Pieces of our life...

I know my last post was 10 days ago and I sure everyone is wondering what has been happening because for a while there something happened every single day, sometimes every hour but honestly there hasn't been much to say until today.

We flew home on the 8th - the travel day was terrible, Jarod was sick at the airport and in a lot of pain on the fight and the car rides but we made it home around 3:30 pm.

From the time we arrived home Jarod has been sleeping, taking pain medication and eating just enough to keep the nausea away from the meds. He is in a lot of pain and they increased the mg of the percoset he is on. He is just trying to focus on resting, the soreness is deep into his mussels and organs and talking even hurts. It takes all his energy to focus on healing and the pain medication makes him out of it and very tired.

Sleeping, eating, pain meds has been the routine for 8 days until this morning. Today was day 15 out of surgery and was his 1st scheduled post opp appointment here in Atlanta. Dr. Mims said he looked great, no infection and the staples were ready to come out. Jarod said it gave him some relief to get them out but still feels very weak, tired, and in deep tissue pain. The doctor said for the next 4-6 weeks Jarod will not feel like doing anything, all the food he is taking in is going toward healing the incision and will make him feel weak and tired and take all his energy for at least another month.

Now we are in the recovery process. Since all of this began in March there has been so many logistics, appointments, things to do, transportation, etc and so much that needed to be done we were in action mode, always moving forward and fighting and we would not have been able to do it without the help of friends and family. We are so grateful for the support, cards, calls, emails, help and things that were done on our behalf through out the last 5 months.

But now the action steps are behind us. We have fought the battle as best we could and now we must wait out the next two years to see if we did it. There isn't any cancer in Jarod right now and they will closely monitor him over the next 2 years to make sure that it doesn't come back. The chances are very much in our favor that this over but we just have to be patient and wait for that time to come and hopefully at the end of the next 2 years truly put all of this behind us.

What Jarod and I need to focus on now is piecing our lives back together. He needs to heal, and have the pain subside. Then we need to take a look at ourselves and figure out where we go from here. It's not about going back to the way things were, its about how this has changed us and our direction and what we want out of life as individuals and with one another. The past 6 months we have required the help of those around us and we won't ever forget the generosity that has been shown to us, and make no mistake we are truly grateful, but the next 6 months is a journey Jarod and I have to do ourselves.

Right now both of us are having a hard time talking and sharing, him because it physically hurts and most likely a little emotionally too and me because I need peace and time to reflect on what has just happened and each day we get up, we get out of bed and thank the lord we are at home with each other and day by day we begin to pick the pieces up and lay the road for rest of our journey.

When there are improvements or changes, I will share them here but things will be far more gradual from the point forward.

We thank you for everything and now ask your patience and understanding with as we focus on our health and moving forward with our lives.

Lindsey & Jarod